Hey guys! I can’t believe that it’s Wednesday already! Thank you all for your kind congratulations on my new job. I had my first day yesterday and it went really well. I really enjoyed my first day as a branch administrator and the people are wonderful.
For this weeks WIAW I’m going to rewind to Monday this week. Bare with me because first I have to rewind even further to the previous Monday to set the scene…
If you remember I was teaching in an undergraduate hematology lab last week Monday, which meant I had no access to a computer to check my uni email account. During the day I got the phone call offering me my new job role, which I was chuffed about all day. After the lab I finally checked my email when I got home to find that I had been invited to an interview for a research position at the University of Oxford!
I almost choked on my dinner!
Being considered for a research position was overwhelming enough, but Oxford uni was just too much. They interview was in exactly a weeks time and they wanted me to give a 10 minutes presentation, which I did yesterday.
After a week of prepping for the interview the day had finally arrived and the first thing I did was went to the gym for a 30 minute hill climb on the cross trainer, strength workout 1 and 5 minutes on the bike.
When I got home I refueled with a delicious green smoothie made from a banana, spinach, kiwis, vanilla stevia, midori greens, acai berry juice and water. This had such a fresh and vibrant taste because of the kiwis and I felt like I really needed the extra boost considering what was ahead of me.
My interview wasn’t until the afternoon so I spent all morning going over my notes and rehearsing my presentation until it was virtually tattooed on to my brain. To settle my nerves I made a mega bowl of gingerbread oats made with 1/2 cup of oats, honey, 1/2 cup of soya milk, 2 cups of water, 1 tsp of ginger, 1/2 tsp of cinnamon, 1/2 tsp of nutmeg, a chopped apple and topped with Sunbutter and dried cranberries.
Interview chic: dress and belt, Mango, thick black tights, Therapy @ House of Fraser, shoe boots, Office, necklace, Swarovski.
All dressed and ready to go I was time to hit the road and walk in to the lions den…
There were 3 lions in fact: two of my potential employees and a lady from HR. I gave my 10 minute presentation, which went quite well despite the 10 minute delay between each slide because of their old computer. After which came the grilling. Lots and lots of questions about my project and the position that I had applied for. To be fair it could have been a lot worse, but I managed to answer all of their questions (some better than others) and I didn’t make a complete fool of myself. I gave it my best shot- what more could I do?
In all fairness I’m not very confident that I will get the research job. I got the feeling that they wanted someone with more research experience in their field and for someone who was “more like them”. I’m not sure if I would even fit in there as they didn’t even crack a smile. But, it did give me a confidence boost that I am perhaps capable of a career in scientific research. If I’m to take anything from that interview if nothing at all it would be the experience of being in that kind of setting and an experience of that type of interview. I left not feeling deflated or vulnerable, but rather inspired and determined.
After getting home I was starving and wanted nothing but comfort food so I made myself a huge vegetarian cottage pie using green lentils, leeks, carrots, onion and mushrooms for the filling in a tomato sauce with swede and parsnip mash on top. I ate half of this on it’s own as it was very filling. It also meant that I had some left over for when I finished work the following day.
I may be doing a PhD, but I’m not the most brightest tool in the tool box. I know that and have never commented otherwise. Sometimes I feel inferior, stupid and undeserving of my role because those around me are on a totally different level of intelligence. I’m doing what I do because I love it, simple as that. I guess at the end of the day that’s all that counts.
Have you ever felt inferior or like you didn’t belong somewhere? How did you overcome this?
Has a challenging experience ever given you a confidence boost?