Initially I was going to call this blog post “The honest truth…” but over the past few days when coming back to add to it, I felt like I was directly speaking to my readers and more like a letter than anything else.
Recently my mind-set about a lot of things in my life where my eating and fitness are concerned has changed. I have now altered my perceptions on what I want to achieve in these areas of my life like I have mentioned before, I’m now looking to be happy and healthy. I’ve spoken about this a lot recently, but have yet to go into any great detail.
Just to warn you this is quite a lengthy post so please bear with me. This post addresses my current journey to wanting to be happy and healthy, fitness goals and my changes that I have made to my diet.
When I started reading blogs I was overwhelmed with the idea that there are so many inspiring people out there who are able to enjoy wholesome and nutritious food as part of a healthy lifestyle without being restrictive, as I had been previously during my teens and early 20s. Feeling totally empowered I embarked on modifying by own diet so it full fresh produce, whole grains and lean protein; after which I decided to start my own blog as an outlet to share my new found passion and creativity with like-minded individuals.
Blogging has really allowed me express my thoughts and feelings with others about areas of my life that people in my social circle probably aren’t really interested in. I’m so grateful that I discovered blogging when I did as it has made me come to so many realisations that I never thought were possible.
Over the last 6 months there has been a massive decrease in the amount of exercise that I carry out each week. I used to workout 6 days a week without fail, with each workout lasting for at least an hour and a half. There was also the feeling of guilt and anxiety if I felt that I hadn’t committed my all to the workout. Looking back I can see that this could have been dangerous and something had to be done.
The amount of cardio I was doing was crazy and to think of the stress that I was putting on my poor body. Since starting my latest job in January, preparing to finish my PhD, planning a wedding, a relocation on the cards and the usual stress of everyday life I became constantly tired and exhausted with very little time for anything else. To deal with this I decided to give myself an extra rest day in the week and so far it has worked perfectly in terms of my tiredness. It was difficult to get my head around with working out less and admittedly I tried to compensate by eating less in fear of any weight gain. At one point I was also working out that little bit harder too.
I’m lucky in the fact that I’m not over-weight. My BMI is pretty much spot on for my height, if a little lower than where I want it to be, but that is something that I am working on. Recently I have started to embrace my body and have become proud of my curves. I’ve realised that it’s great to have curves and my previous workout routine suggested the contrary. Now I know that it’s not necessary for me to work out like mad. Instead my workout routine is based on gentle cardio, yoga and strength training which just works so much better for me right now. I cannot remember the last time that I ran more than 6 miles and I haven’t been on the treadmill for ages either. I’m really enjoying my workouts at the moment and for me that is so important.
Currently I am also in a great place where my eating is concerned too. Over the past few weeks I have been reviewing some of my older posts and have noted that in some respects that I was being rather restrictive, not in my portion sizes but in the range of food that I ate. All of my food was plant based, no dairy, and I have also given eaten meat although I still occasionally eat fish. Also, my carbohydrate intake was also low. Since then I have looked into eating eggs and white cheeses and recently enjoyed eating yoghurt too. I don’t know if I will ever eat meat again, but I am enjoying eating just fish at the moment when I feel that I need it. I’m now eating a great variety of food full of healthy greens, fruit, fats, whole grains, pulses and naughty treats too! Before, it was obvious that I was depriving myself especially with the healthy fats, but right now I am quite happy to eat lots of avocados, full fat coconut products and eat nut butter straight up from the jar in copious amounts. Geez, I was missing out!
In September it will be two years since I started this blog and as the months have passed I can see that as my healthy living journey continues my relationship with food is growing amazingly. I no longer over eat and seem to know just the right amount of food to eat to keep me satisfied and have gotten into the habit of eating only when I am hungry. It has taken so long to get this far but I am quite proud of myself that I have.
As a healthy living blogger and as the blog has grown, I do feel a massive weight of responsibility on my shoulders to my readers. To be honest I did feel some kind of pressure on myself to “keep up appearances” and project this image of a super healthy blogger who works out a zillion hours a day. In the early days it seems that the ideology of my blog “…on a quest for that healthy balance!” became lost, but now it is back with a vengeance and definitely an important focus in my life. In essence I needed to change things for myself and my own life as my previous lifestyle just wasn’t working for me anymore. I hope no one feels upset or let down, but in truth I personally think is far healthier to make changes like this for a happier healthier lifestyle rather than continuing to harm my body. The changes I have made have been working great for me and I have never been happier and healthier and in my opinion that is what counts.
Wow! This has become quite an essay, but I felt that this post was long overdue and I like to be entirely honest on my blog. If you made it to the end then thank you, and if you gave up thank you for taking the time and effort to read this very long post.
Have you changed you workout routine in accordance with your changing lifestyle?
How has your relationship with food changed over the years?
As a blogger do feel a sense of responsibility to your readers to uphold a certain image? And as a reader what do you have any expectations from the blogs that you read?