Last week was the first week that I fully committed to getting back on track with feeling healthy and fit again. I will be sharing on the blog the shifts that I’ve made in my daily life, but I have been sharing my progress every day over on my Instagram account and keeping you all regularly updated there.
I’ve lost 2lbs in my first week, which I’m a little surprised about. I’m really happy with this progress too because it reiterates the fact that you don’t have to deprive yourself when you’re looking to feel healthy or weight loss is your goal. I’ve been eating chocolate, white carbs and loving all of my meals. I’m feeling really great at the moment too and enjoying my new workout routine, my fitness mojo has returned with a bang!
Now, I don’t own a pair of scales and I refuse to buy any, but my gym does. I haven’t weighed myself in over 10 years because it was such a trigger for me and was a massive part of what fuelled my disordered eating and unhealthy mindset in the past. However, at the start of this new phase in my life of wanting to feel healthy and strong again, I was keen to learn how much I actually weighed at the beginning of this journey.
I stand by my argument that numbers in health are BS because a numerical value can not be a direct measurement of health. There is far more to health than the number on the scale, it’s also about what you are thinking and saying too – mindset is an overarching factor that often gets overlooked.
After an interesting conversation with one of the lovely ladies in my private Facebook group, I felt compelled to get my thoughts down on paper, well the blog, but you know what I mean. It acted as a great reminder as to why I never step on the scales in the first place, it’s so easy to obsess about the numbers. The diet culture teaches us that we need to take up less space on this earth to validate our happiness. However, a set range of numbers that some stranger has said is healthy isn’t going to work, because healthy comes in all different shapes and sizes. Therefore, we shouldn’t aspire to these numbers because you can be your own version of healthy whatever your size, which the scales simply have no control over.
There is also the negative cycle associated with scales, the sheer elation when you see a loss and then the disappointment when you haven’t lost anything even though you’ve worked so hard that week. I never want to get stuck in this cycle ever again.
What occurred to me when I stepped on the scales for the first time last week and yesterday is how different I felt compared to when I was in that unhealthy and obsessive place. The number didn’t really affect me at all, it is what it is, just a number. I think this is down to all the mindset work that I’ve done in this area over the years. On a personal level, this is definitely a sign of healing. I’m in a better place and know that feeling fabulous and like my best self has nothing to do with the number on the scale.
Do I think scales have a place in health and wellness?
Yes and no. Ultimately, I think it comes down to why are you using them. If you’re looking for self-gratification and losing weight because you think you’re going to be happier, I’m sorry but it’s not going to happen. Happiness is not going to be found by stepping on the scales, making yourself smaller and conforming to societies ideals of beauty isn’t either. Losing weight simply cannot cure a negative body image, it takes plenty of mindset work and time. On the other hand, scales are a great way to track progress if weight loss is your goal and born from positive intentions, like wanting to feel strong and fit again.
At the moment, although I’m feeling better after one week of really taking care of myself, I’m nowhere near my optimum health yet. I have a long way to go, but I’m going to continue to nurture my body with the foods that I enjoy (including chocolate) move my body in a way that I love. I’m not going to focus on the numbers too much because that’s all they are, just numbers.